had 52oz of coffee today, all starbucks
had cannabis
had tylenol
had tizinadine

all to stop the pain

all it did was make me pass out

i woke up to my stepdad wanting me to do work
i was loopy as hell
making me pull down bins from the attic
then later hand them right back up on a ladder

this made my back hurt worse

ug
i hate fibromyalgia
my lower back hurts bad right now
im going to lay down

tomorrow my lady needs me
but first i have to be in cambridge by 10
then my last therapist appointment with my current therapist is at 11
which i will prolly have in the parking lot or computer there at the office
though not in the office if i can help it
THEN i get to pick up my lady
to take her to get her meds

i hope i dont have to take her back to her home to feed her dogs
ill just leave
or am begged to get her dog food
im not going to do that
cuz i dont care about her animals
this may make me an asshole but if she cant handle pets why get them
huh?
why should i have to support her and her dogs?
no!
i cant afford that!

anyways i need to get to sleep
long day i just know it
im gonna be on the road a lot
its going to suck
and who is going to care?
not her