I am not sane

i neglected my girlfriend.
basically shes been so depressed she cant get out of bed
i called her many times but it never occured to me to actually drive over there.
ugh

i pushed my best friend away last night
i dont expect forgiveness
or anything
he said maybe 6 words to me today
ugh

i got caled a creep by ANOTHER woman
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
no i wasnt trying to pick her up
shes just a friend ive known for many, many years
ugh

i need these last two days with my therapist
sunday im going to see my girlfrind and monday is therapy day
then wednesday
then a new therapist
ive had so many therapists
its not even funny
ugh

maybe i need some time in a new environment or the ward
or a med change
or to get high
i dont know
i had 7 light beers day before last
i didnt like it at all
ugh

what's a man to do?